This is the human story of a man obsessed by retaining his youth, fearful of turning 40 and feeling a complete failure. It's the story of coping with media scandal, how he and his wife Belinda managed to save their marriage, and why he's leaving politics for the unknown. This is not a political memoir, it's the deeply touching and human story of a man at his wits' end. And above all it's the story of a man trying to cope with the onset of middle age.