As seen on Shane Dawson's YouTube channel!

What if falling in love meant almost losing everything?

Where does a moderately popular internet star who never leaves her house look for potential suitors? Online. Tinder, Bumble, Match.com, OkCupid-I tried them all. My thirty-one-year-old self clicked and swiped her little heart out, leading to more dates than I could count, and more disappointment than I was prepared for.

Maybe you can relate. Maybe you know all too well the perils of modern dating. But let's say, eventually, you meet someone. You think to yourself, "Wow, they're perfect! Take me off the market, put a ring on it, knock me up, the whole enchilada, because they are 'the one.'" Let's also say that they "feel the same way" about you. Your life starts to make sense! All the pain, heartbreak, and frustration from past failed relationships was worth it. Slow clap.

That's how I felt about Milos. He was from Europe, a doctor, wealthy, athletic. He had an accent and a dog. Milos was textbook marriage material.

For him it was "love at first sight," but for me, it was "anxiety on every date."

Something was telling me to run-but for two years, the only running I did was straight into his arms.

If only I would have listened.

This isn't a love story.

It's my story of survival.