At the age of nine, the author was knocked on the jaw in her school playground. What her family initially thought was a toothache brought on by the accident, turned out to be Ewing's syndrome, a rare form of cancer which, at the time of its diagnosis, had a 95% mortality rate. For a family with problems of their own, Lucy's cancer treatment became an almost intolerable burden. The response of her family made Lucy feel like an outsider - and she alied herself with other outsiders, including transvestites and New Agers in an attempt to feel she belonged. This book is a memoir of Lucy's struggle with childhood cancer and disfigurement and her search for self identity in the midst of long-term facial reconstructive surgery.